40 lbs, 2018
Flat screen tv/Ipad, 40 lb compression blanket
seeking warmth in a space that rejects you
rejecting a space that you built to protect you
40 lbs is a weight that has attached to me, made its way under my skin. It burdens my body but also provides it comfort, warmth, safety. I want to stay and burrow myself into the weight I have put on, but I want to escape and run away from it. I want it to be accessible when I need it, but detachable when I don't. Something I can put on when I am in the company of men, but take off in the company of myself.
How do I create a body that is safe from others’ violence, and safe from my own?
Flat screen tv/Ipad, 40 lb compression blanket
seeking warmth in a space that rejects you
rejecting a space that you built to protect you
40 lbs is a weight that has attached to me, made its way under my skin. It burdens my body but also provides it comfort, warmth, safety. I want to stay and burrow myself into the weight I have put on, but I want to escape and run away from it. I want it to be accessible when I need it, but detachable when I don't. Something I can put on when I am in the company of men, but take off in the company of myself.
How do I create a body that is safe from others’ violence, and safe from my own?
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